We know that death is joining the Void (and indeed it is), but I read something by chance in the Simon Necronomicon (I never imagined that this book will become handy), and I saw two lines that I found interesting. I will type them as I noted them.
"The tomb of man is the joy of KUTULU, the food of AZAG-THOTH."
These two lines say a lot.
I did a practice to connect with Cthulhu (which I do not want to share the way at least yet because it is something very personal) and a realization raised in my mind.
But first I would like to take you with me to see once again who Cthulhu is and what are his plans his view on humanity.
Cthulhu came from the stars and ruled the Earth for millions of Years until he prisoned himself in the Mighty city of R'lyeh to protect himself from the stars. He calls mankind to liberate him when the stars are right, and so he will bring the Earth again beneath his sway. And so humanity will die. Then why we follow him and call him "The Freedomer"?
I will borrow two words from the Bible.
"Cthulhu does not restrict, he simply guides"
The Bible of Cthulhu
And this says a lot. The Call of Cthulhu is actually, a gift. And I would like to ask you to read the Chapter "On Death" from the Bible. We are all going to die. It is the common truth for everything and everyone, and there is no escape. We are all going to die, so why do not enjoy our little time in this floating rock we call Earth? Because we won't have the chance again. "The Call of the Void" as the Wyntre mentioned in the Bible, is actually an aspect of the Call of Cthulhu. I also have given a clue in my previous Cthulhu gnosis, and I mentioned that the abyss that R'lyeh is sunken is the Chaos aka The Void. And it ties closely if we think about it. Cthulhu sleeps and when he rises he will kill us all. So one part of his guidance is, to enjoy our lives before that happens. He can show this to you, but it depends on YOU if you will follow it. Cthulhu shows many times things in our dreams that we cannot accept their truth. And I would like to share this with you as proof (if we can theorize that it actually is). I shared this when we celebrated Lovecraft's death on 15 of March in our discord server, which was a wonderful night.
I remember that I wasn't striving for Ascension. In the mean that I wasn't trying enough. I did not know what to do so I did a blood sacrifice to Cthulhu at night (Unwise and childish but not simultaneously because it was a big help). When I fell asleep I saw, a dream.
The dream begins with me in a room that they were killing people. With knives guns etc. They killed many. A woman was the one before me, I saw how violently she put her head down and holding her hands. She was screaming for help. The leader of this mafia or organization I don't what the fuck they were, were looking with joy. I told him to kill her fast no painfully and slow with the knife as the man was doing, I saw a gun behind her and I told him to use it to shoot her at her heart or the head. I don't remember what happens but know I had a knife and I threw it to his throat. He was dead now. Now it was my turn. "It is my time to return back to the Void", I thought. I was calm. One guy that was in front of me took the gun and he was ready to shoot me. He was wearing a black leather jacket with black jeans and shoes. He also had a black beard and his hair was very short. He started shooting. He was avoiding shooting me at the places of the heart and the brain. I wasn't feeling pain from the bullets. I didn't felt pain from their intruding in my flesh. Instead, I was spinning around until a bullet hits me at the heart or my head. He stopped and he just shot me in my head. This time I felt how the bullet intrudes in my brain but I wasn't really in pain. I immediately fell to the floor and my senses started to go black. I felt that I was joining a new world that only the Void exists (if we can use the terms world and existence here). For those seconds I did many thoughts that actually are very personal so I won't tell them (sorry). I thought "this is it? This is how my life was? I didn't do those things I wanted. I didn't enjoy my life." I opened my eyes but I knew that I will die slowly. I wasn't accepting it. I was in a room with dead bodies. The only light that was coming was from the crevices of the three doors that were in the room. The doors that were in my right hand were connecting to the room that they shot me.
I felt that I want to leave I changed my mind, but there was no escape. "Even if I got outside the room they will kill me again" was a thought that spawned in my head. I started to get panicked and then I woke up and breathing fast. I see nightmares but no nightmare has given me so much terror so I was praying and thanking everything that it was just a dream.
I knew that I will die, and for some reason, I was waiting until this moment comes
I discovered my fear. The world after my death will continue and I won't be there to see it. Our evolution, or destruction, I won't see Cthulhu rise. And most of all I found......that I don't enjoy my life. I realized that I have many things s to change. As one character in a greek movie said "Live every moment of your life, like it is your last one."
I fear what will happen after me. I fear the idea that my journey will end, and I will not live again. And I didn't enjoy my life.
This is a blessing. I appreciated the fact that I even EXIST. Even I forget this I have to remind this all the time.
And this is the point of the article. When we die our metaphorical Cthulhu awakens and kills us. Every second that is passing leads us closer to our end, exactly as every second the stars are getting closer so the time for Cthulhu is coming closer to his rise and take what belongs to him. This is his gift. We are equally insignificant to Cthulhu because no one will be spared from death. Everyone will live and enjoy Azathoth's dream for once, but all will return back forever with no excuses.
And this is exactly what "the food of AZAG-THOTH (Azathoth)" means. Our matter will be used for something else, matter and atoms cannot be destroyed. It is literally recycling. And this is a beauty of nature, it has both sides of the Coin, Nug and Yeb are ruling the laws of Azathoth's Dream, and we should be thankful about this because our universe could be Chaotic and very deadly, but everything is balanced so our universe can be as we know, and so we can be here to embrace this.
I always like to discover new perspectives. And this ties very closely with my god's ethics (if such thing exists in Cthulhu).