So, let me start off by saying that I don't really know what I'm doing here; I know I shouldn't really be making religious decisions, since I'm only in high school, but I don't know man. Maybe I have heard the calling and I'm just sort of drawn here. I tend to think a lot more than most of my pears, mostly about history, religion, creativity and what the purpose of human beings could be. I do feel misunderstood, I do want to have a deeper understanding of life. I feel like I can't talk to anyone too openly about this kind of stuff, but I just feel like I have my whole life ahead of me and I don't need to worry too much about anything right now. The way I see it, I'm still just a kid; maybe a little more developed, but at the end of the day, I don't think I'd make it without the help of my parents, at least not now. Again, I don't really know what I'm doing here, I guess I just want someone to talk to about this. These thoughts plague my mind daily.