I've always had this buzzing in the back of my head that no matter what I did, no matter what I achieved, it was never really my purpose. It's hard to explain, but I feel there are others that feel the same and maybe can help me. I've been drawn to this and it feels right it feels like this is where i belong. I just don't know where to start who to talk to or what to do with the information I've been given. I wouldn't call it a cry for help. It's more like a cry for guidance.
There are DEFINITELY others that feel the way you do. You have heard The Call. I am certain that The Bible of Cthulhu will satisfy every question that you have and provide you with the means to immerse yourself fully in our beliefs.