I've tried to contact you before.
I hope someone listens this time.
I used to be a Buddhist monk, on my search for enlightenment. I never believed in this cult then. But one day I was meditating at home; I sat down and started my usual routine, then I appeared before his gate. He was in the form of a shadow in front of a huge stone door, I knew and thought this was my Buddhist moment to enlightilenment. I asked if I could pass through, and he(shadow at the time) said, "only if you want to, but you may loose your mind. " I said yes and as the door opened the shadow went away and behind the door was a huge eye (3 stories in diameter) shadowy hands came out and started pulling me into the doors opening. I was terrified not sure what was going on but he read my thoughts "it's too late to turn back now! "
I can't even describe to you what I've learned and saw. But it seemed like lifetime went by, unknowingly to me I was on the ground in a violent seizure, I pissed and crapped all over the place and when I woke up my roommates and a few friends were around me panicking, there was a ER unit arriving. They took me to the hospital and the rest is too much for this post.
He told me its my job and duty to teach other would be priest (Yog Sothoth ones) and followers of the cult void meditation. I hold the keys to his doors.
This really happened to me. Please believe me. When I meditate now I can go places in my mind I never could before, if I need guidance he comes to me during meditation as an eye, we communicate with numbers. Hell appear and send me sets of numbers.