Strange but irrefutable

For years I have enjoyed the tales of love craft and his mythos. I have even gone as far as to research the other elder gods and see what could be gained from it. I was raised in a Christian household. With a grandma that didn’t permit me to read and focus on anything else that didn’t promote a Christian message or topic. Something compelled to still learn, to still read and explore. Of course it had to be done in secret. I have learned much in these past few years, however I do know there is still a lot to learn. This presence, this compelling force that drove me to study, explore and not being tied down or restrained. I haven’t been able to place it concretely. I feel like this is the call. I’m ready to join you if you will have me.