Hello, my name is Lucius Eilbau and I'm a member of the Culte francophone (here).
this is the translation in English (with deepl) of my presentation in French:
Bonjour, my name is Lucius Eilbau, and, if that's not the name I was given at birth, that's the name I chose. My life and my conception of the world changed when I discovered the Necronomicon, the Simon de Bragellone edition.
From a very young age, I had always been attracted by the search for and acquisition of knowledge, however diverse and strange it might be. Very early on, the holy books and the conception of God as it is considered by Judeo-Christians, but also by other religions, had seemed absurd to me: If there were one or more divine beings, they would have no use for the human race, infinitely superior to mankind as man is to the ants or the fungi that populate our homes and that we do not notice. I have read it completely several times. It was in the summer of 2018 that I heard about Lovecraft, after reading "The Strange Charles Dexter Ward Affair". After reading about H.P. Lovecraft, I realized (to my surprise) that his conception of the gods was very similar to mine. I immediately got an edition of the Necronomicon (Simon's) and devoured it. But very quickly I discovered many inconsistencies in this work, beginning with the Adored Entities. Lovecraft describes the Necronomicon as a book used by the worshippers of the "Great Ancients", while Simon, as a layman, declares it to be a book for worshipping the "Very Ancients" and fighting against the "Great Ancients". This inconsistency struck me, and I decided to rely more on ancient and recognized Books than on this chimera for trade. As I made this decision, I decided to have about forty throughout the country, allowing me to devote myself to my research. I immersed myself body and soul in reading books such as "The Keys of Solomon", "The Great Grimoire", "The Book of Restoration", and "The Grimoire of Pope Honorius". In order to learn from the mistakes but also from the few successes, from those who had gone before me, I began to read the different versions of the Necronomicon, but also the Kabbalistic Bibles.
But it was a completely different discovery that finally convinced me of my predestination to the occult arts. While inquiring about my ancestors, I made the strange discovery that a certain number of them had been taken under the wing of the Princes for their great science, but were often rejected afterwards by the Mighty Ones and by the People, accused of acts of witchcraft. Their sum of knowledge (which I consider immense), having been burned, lost, or voluntarily mislaid, I felt both sad and joyful, both heir and orphan. Bringing my situation closer to that of the "Peabody Legacy" or the better known "Charles Dexter Ward Affair", I began to write a journal in a cryptic way, recounting my thoughts, experiences and discoveries. I chose Yog-Sothoth, Nyarlathotep and Dagon as my protective deities. I created the identity that you know and set my date of birth at March 30, 1991, March 30 being the night of the Walpurgis and those of Yog-Sothoth, the year 1991, because it was symmetrical (19/91), moreover the events of this year announced the 21st century, the century to which I belong, and of which I intend to be one of the masters.
When I discovered a collective such as yours, I registered immediately, and, as a sign of destiny or of the Great Elders, my candidature was accepted on March 30th. I think I can be of use to you by sharing with you my occult knowledge or many ebooks and documents on the subject.
May the Great Elders help you
Lucius Eilbau on 01/05/20
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