I greet every and all in here. My experiences with the works of lovecraft, the old ones and any sort of call have been weird through my life. I questioned literally everything from a young age (and continue to do so having done so all my existence so far.) I came across the original forum by chance and saw this announced in the shoutbox (amazing work btw I absolutely love the layout and aesthetic!) It was weird when I out of curiosity started reading the different sections of this site, I felt and to an extent still feel like it's "wrong" to do so despite not feeling guilty to read for the sake of knowledge. As I layed in bed last night the only thing I could hear in my head was the chant and I could only think of the passages I had read here. I don't know that I would consider myself a disciple but, something keeps drawing me here, some unkown urge and primal instinct to establish some sort of contact and to keep returning here to read. Knowledge and reading have always been one of the things I value most in life, so my curiosity is not uncommon for me but the way it keeps occuring in my head and the feeling in my body is unlike what I've felt before when I've taken interest in a subject, and never have an urge to establish any contact with any forum of any site and following I've taken interest out of the sake of knowledge ever occured to me and never been as strong as this. I've always ever since childhood taken a HUGE interest in the occult though never have I tried to do anything with the rituals and knowledge I have gathered across many years of curious study scouring libraries, books and tomes, and scouring the internet for various peices of information and teachings. I'm not sure what to do, and I know only I can decide what to do at all with this urge, mundanity have always been a hard thing for me, as a kid I always wished magick was real and to be some sort of sorcerer when I grew up, of course a childs dream in that sense but as I kept learning more I realized what I dreamt of wasn't entirely out of the realm of possibility. I do apologize for the huge wall of text, but I thank any for even reading this far. I have heeded the urge to establish contact, and the urge hasent stopped. The notion of getting my hands on your Biblical tome, once released to the public, clings to my mind like a tendril guiding my hands to simply open the pages and start reading, an urge beyond my control. I hail to any of you, a quest could start for me here and I have for years wanted and felt like I had to be part of something, but no teachings ever truly called to me. I for some reason, can't wait to start having some sort of conversation and would love to hear from you Wyntre, the creator of this incredible site. I await pateintly.
Kindest regards
Sander.
Greeting Sander,
First an apology for the tardy reply; the Work has kept me incredibly busy.
Second some gratitude for your kind words regarding the site, my work and the effort therein. It is appreciated.
Allow me to give you some words of comfort: every single thing you are feeling is both normal and, frankly, expected. I myself left Christianity early on, apostatised and joined Satanism, after that it was a never ending hunt to fulfil the hunger of the occult that I had, but nothing ever quite sated me.
From tarot cards and Wicca to Luciferianism and Satanic rituals, all were always there and tantalising but were also easy to scratch the surface.
It was Cthulhu that called to me, over and over again.
After a lifetime of hearing this call and finally heeding it I have come to many conclusions, the simplest of which is this: The call you feel is what we in the Cult refer to quite simply and appropriately as, the Calling, and it only happens to the chosen.
Make no mistake Sander, you are Called.
As you rightly say, it is up to you to decide to follow it or not. The Call is yours to Heed or ignore as you see fit.
Decide in the knowledge that you HAVE been Called, and this is not something to overlook, mock or pretend against. Few truly hear it. You have.
My advise is to embrace it.
There is nothing sinister in doing so.
I will soon hold the first ever online Cultist gathering for the Called, I would recommend you attend it. Keep your eyes on your email inbox and this forum.
Ia Cthulhu,
Wyntre
I felt EXACTLY the same Sander. Its like somehow these pages, this website itself, is part of some dark recess of the human mind that should never be seen. Like the book in Evil Dead almost. But its constantly there. Every few days my mind comes back to this website and the words in it and just the IDEA of this Cult. I cant fucking wait for the Bible!!
Im with you
Hell YES!!!!